Saturday, April 16, 2011

Stream of Consciousness

Now I find I have time on my hands and no list.

It's my first day of spring break. What to do?

I have lots of creative projects and must-get-done projects and I don't know where to start because I don't have list.

I promised I'd start journaling more and would try a little stream of consciousness writing to see if I could give myself a little direction.

I have been living without a LIST for quite a while now. That doesn't mean I've been idle. It just means that I've been only just getting through without working toward any well-defined goals.

After I finish my coffee today I'll sit and begin making some good lists. Then I'll go back and prioritize and make sublists.

Paint, knit, bills, construction, yard, home, clean, bills, groceries, recycling, family, letter writing, lesson planning, blogging, Prissmas, career planning, . . .

I'm not sure where to start.

Fortunately it's a foggy rainy day so napping will have to be added to the list.

Laundry, new glasses, dental appointment, storage space, reading for fun, book study, recipes, . . .

If I don't have a good list in place soon, before I know it, I'll find myself in my first teacher's summer sitting in this same spot doing the same thing.

Clean Jeep, new Jeep top?, design knit patterns, witch's garden, pagan studies, tarot, . . .

All these things jump in and out of my head while I drive to and from work each weekday, and once I get home, all I want to do is go to bed with a book.

My first thought each workday morning is "Today is [insert day] so I must . . ."

My first thought each weekend is "I overslept! No, wait. No school today so I must . . ."

Know myself. Know my craft. Learn. Apply knowledge with wisdom. Achieve balance. Keep my words in good order. Keep my thoughts in good order. Celebrate life! Attune with the cycles of the earth. Breathe and eat correctly. Exercise the body. Meditate. Respect the energy. (Goals of a witch.)

I also have to remember things that I promised to do for other people, like post the Bush family confession - where did I put that?

This is the most disorganized I've been in quite a while. "Time keeps on slippin', slippin' into the future."

The very first item on my list should be love my husband . . .

Play with my dogs, pet my cats, mark a meandering path through the hillside, rake up the acorns, twigs, and leaves, move some rocks, clear the porch, plant signs in the garden, what to plant with bulbs? . . .

Determine to be happy - celebrate life - enjoy the little things -

Post blog entry and finish coffee.

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